why now ?

.i don't know how much i being hurt because of you .... i trying smile, stay strong , and trying to forget our friendship .. why you being rude to me i trying to be nice you but why you hurt my feelings .. we haven't meet maybe 3 years .. why now ... i can't forget because you still my sister ... i want to be friend with you .... i want this problem solve .... but i can't make people 'happy ' anymore .. i miss the little girl happy who make people laughting because of my joke ... i want to move on .... to Jia meng i know you still care about me but i don;t want to hurt you again ...